6 Week Old Ella Joy

SWEET BABY ELLA 

6 Weeks Old Tomorrow! :)

Ella loves to kick her legs and move that long body! 

This melts my heart! 

I took these pictures today at the office, she is sooo good while her mama works!

I still find it surreal at time that I am a mama!  But look how lucky I am! I have never been happier in my whole life! I can't believe that after 9 urr 10 months of being pregnant I have the best baby in the world.  I am so blessed, look at that face! She is such a happy and clam baby (unless she is hungry).  Tomorrow my baby will be 6 weeks old I feel like these 6 weeks have gone by so fast.  My friends who have children all tell me the same thing "Enjoy this time, it goes by fast!" and they are right it does. And you bet I soak up every minute with this sweet baby! 

FIT MAMA BLOG

I have started a new blog just for my weight loss success and my results with P90X: 

http://fitjenn09.blogspot.com/

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I wonder...

FLOAT TRIP?!? PLEASE!

You know what I want to do? ... I want to float the river this summer! 

 

I think I have floated the river just about once every year.  I am thinking about rounding up some people to spend the day being lazy and soaking up some sun! I really feel like I need a vacation even if its a small river trip! Looks like I will be starting a second job soon and I need to brake lose and have some fun before work takes up a lot of my time again! 

My 90 Days!

Okay So I am so ready to see my doctor on Thursday, why? Because I am hoping to hear that I am healed up and ready to start working out again! This weekend I started reading through the P90X packet and nutrition plan.  I have decided that while I am home with Ella during the days this program will be great since I wont even have to leave home to go to the gym!  I would really like to start my 90 days no longer than Aug. 1st that way by November I can hopefully have a body I am proud of again!  I am really trying to prepare myself so I will make it through the complete 90 days.  Today I am writing out my meal plan and I am going to watch the video's and make sure that I do every thing possible to set myself up for success.  I don't think people realize how ready I am to start working out and how working out really helps me with my stress.  I could use to help! The program encourages people taking before and after photo's which I don't mind except for now I have a few stretch marks which is wonderful.  I hear nothing but great things about this program so I am ready to test my dedication out and ready to see great results! 

Red Prime and Night Out!

Last Night ended up being a good night.  I had dinner at Red Prime for the first time! I had gone in there before for drinks but hadn't ate there before.  I had the best filet ever, however I am a former vegetarian so its not like I have much to compare it too!  The food was great from start to finish! Yum!!!! I can't wait to eat dinner there again!! After dinner I came home to fed Ella and my Mom offered to babysit so I could go out with some friends. I met up with my friend Denny at Edna's and from there we went to a couple of different bars and I got to see a lot of friends I hadn't hung out with in awhile.  It felt weird being out on a saturday night again! Going to these busy bars really are not my scene anymore but it was still great to get out and see a lot of old friends!! Funny how times change, while I was out all I could think about was how my little girl was doing.  I am so lucky to have such a wonderful girl, I can't imagine my life without her!

Joy In Every Day!

Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day.  ~Author Unknown

This Too Shall Pass

This week has been a rough week for me! I got sick mid week and also got a little girlie and emanational about some things in my life.  First of all I'm hardly ever sick and it seems like when I am its bad.  I've been in bed for the last two days as much as possible when I wasn't tending to my sweet baby.  Thankfully I woke up today and felt tons better, Praise God! 

I'm also trying to not take some possibly hurtful things too personal, which then there is a little bit of "drama" going on top of being sick it all just seems worst than it might be (maybe) . 

I feel like I have changed a lot this past year and really there is no doubt that I have change a lot! I mean I had to. Now I'm recently learning for like the 2nd time in my life that I need to be carful in trusting people's words... Even though I had my doubts I still entertained ideas as possible truths, my mistake.  My gut was telling me to be cautious and for the most part I was.  Ugh sorry I am being so vague but I try not to vent my frustration on many people so I am just gonna do it here as a reminder to myself as a new mother to be very cautious of my feelings and people I put my trust in.
Okay enough with the awful post lately! 

I am feeling better today and I'm having a whole new outlook on my circumstances. I know there are still a lot of things I need to figure out and I will, but for now all I can do is my best one.day.at.a.time. 

Blah!

Today is just one of those days.... I don't know if my hormones are just now getting outta whack since my pregnancy or what!!! I am in this funk and I hate it.  I am really annoyed right now with a bunch of situations and uncertainties in my life. I know I have to change my thinking though and focus on the positive.  I just feel like there are a lot of changes that I am needing to make, things I need to focus less on and put the focus and energy on more promising things. I really wish I had the green light from my doctor so that I could go work out! A good work out session really helps me clear my head!! Oh well just got to take this one day at a time!

Happy 4th of July!!

{ Ella in her 4th of July Outfit! }

Today is the 4th of July and it's RAINING! Last year I was at the lake and it poured, now more rain this year?!? This sucks! I love the rain but not on the day I have plans to run errands and be out doing stuff! 

Ella got to wear her 4th of July Romper to church today and was a big hit! 

One thing I love about this weather is being lazy with my little girl! I'm going to go cuddle with my baby and get a nap in because tonight Mama gets to go out tonight! :)

2 week update-

So the last couple of days have been a little bit on the frustrating side.  Ella has decided that when she eats she wants to drag it out for two hours of eating and napping. Napping with my boob in her mouth that is! (sorry I'm going to be blunt and grow up if your mind is going in the gutter! I'm a mom now for crying out loud!). Anyway I tried to move her to her crib last night once she fell asleep so I could then go to bed only to hear sad crying minutes later.  I first put her in her crib at 11:30 ish after feeding her, she woke up at 12:00 ish and this on and off again feeding/napping went on til 3:00am this morning! I cried somewhere in the middle of it all.  I was super tired and annoyed. I think my hormones were a little bit outta control too because I hardly ever cry, I hate to cry and yesterday it was the easiest thing for me to do! Ugh! 

I hate whining and I am sorry that this is what I am doing now, but hey I blog is an okay place to vent from time to time right?!?!?! Well I have been wanting to quit at the whole breast feeding thing, but I won't allow myself to! I know that it's the healthiest thing for Ella therefore I'm going to stick with it and know that it will get easier! I am making it a GOAL to breast fed till at Least September no matter what! So wish me luck because I need it right now! 

On a brighter note last weekend I bought a scale and since then I have lost (drumroll.....) 8 lbs! I am 8lbs away from where I was last October when I found out I was pregnant! It's only been two weeks and I have not been able to start working out yet so I am hoping next month will be promising! I have been eating oats and eggs in the morning, lots of salads, and then some dinners have been fish and rice. My weakness though has become chocolate covered nuts! Last night I watched a movie with Ella and ate extra butter popcorn with peanut butter M&M's what was I thinking!! Oh well. I have a little over 20lbs to lose to get to my goal weight and I am thinking I can reach it before Thanksgiving! 

Other than my struggles with breast feeding and my success at weight loss nothing really new is going on with me.  Ella is really doing great aside from the nights she wants to be up feeding forever.  My mother has been such a big help to me these last two weeks! Her and my dad just went out of town last night and they will be returning tonight.  She told me that I needed I brake and that she is wanting to watch Ella while I go out Sunday and/or Monday night! What a sweet thing to offer and I do need some time away! The sad thing though is that I really don't know what I'll do! Jessica is out of town this weekend and Tiffanie is in Dallas.... Some of my other friends I am kinda frustrated with but I am sure I'll figure something out.  Hell even if I end up driving around town alone for two hours it will still be a nice brake.  Being at home all summer long has started to make me go a little insane!